Return my sentences,
Return my weakness,
Return my words,
Return my emotions.
My words long gone to you, are pale now in my soul.
Those words were my passion – of which am now intrigued to implore.
Do me a favor,
Return to me my lovers
Who share pure love with my soul.
Along the terrainous stretches –
We walked together.
Uttering and inspiring words of comfort and promise.
Was it not ‘her’, who made me move on?
My mind still n a trance
For those words mesmerize
Do return my poems.
As this day fades,
My mind wonders about tomorrow.
Will I still be,
Will I still be the lonely cliff that stands alone,
That stands alone on the plains of Turkana?
Will I still be,
Will I Still be the lonely cloud, wandering far-off,
On the distant horizon solo?
Will I still be,
The motherless kitten that knows not how to hunt for food?
Will is still be,
The acacia tree that stands,
That stands nostalgically on the road to sudann?
Will I still be?
I sit at crossroads in my heart
Before me, a green distance of tall trees and napier grass,
Slightly dancing in the wind for some unknown music,
The soothing morning sun shines on my engrossed face
I humble and obey the rituals in my heart
Behind the façade of a smiling face lies a restless soul,
Jailed by the fear of the rebirth of yore
- The empty stretches, the lonely heart, the troubled mind and the rumbling of stomach.
All point t one hell of a life I trod.
The sun now behind the cloud, I tolerate the sudden chill,
It gives me a refreshing feel of things to come.
Perhaps, I shall never again experience the empty stage of starting off,
Maybe, luck lurks in my path now and forever.
Emptiness, lost hope, and anxiety might never be my portion anymore,
My shield shall stand the storm of injustice against my being.
I pause, look up and a sigh of relief escapes me,
Saluting the passing breeze.
I think my journey is now on course.
Is shall sit at the council of elders and learn the trick for the road.
I close my eyes and in a fleeting moment I gaze in my soul,
The place of the plains ensnares my imagination,
I surrender to the beauty of innocence and calmness thereby
(the bustle and hassle only for the ants below)
I meet a girl by the thorny bush;
He breast are still shy, legit,
To my eloquence she succumbs
We mate, I sire and there’s a mark on that part.
My spirit is free from the constraints of the city
I surpass my taught laws and tread carefully
Inside the world of explanation
30th March 2008
The fire in your eyes!
The poet in me.
The cosmos Ad Infinitum.
This is a poem for you.
My energy fields have done their round/trip continuum,
They’ve settled back near your attractions
When I started, it was me inside you.
Those eyes promise much.
I’m drunk with them,
I’m merry in my helplessness towards their passion,
My knees can’t hold,
My defences are nothing around you.
That infamous line of yore,
Full of my teenage testosterone and promise,
Laden with prophetic surprise,
‘Magy will come back’
23rd July 2015 at 5:23 a.m
A poem written to honor my wife, the inspiration in her eyes today morning.
My journey to Lodwar
I arrived in Kitale (KTL) at 5:48 a.m. in the morning aboard a Eldoret Express bus. It has been an eight-hour journey from Nairobi.
I got myself a quick breakfast and anxiously boarded another Eldoret Express bus o Lodwar ad at exactly 9:55 a.m. we were on our way. I was filled with joy as I believed that the place I was heading to was able to cure my stress and shortcomings. A two year stay in Nairobi had inflicted so much damage to my emotional well-being and I couldn’t wait to put all of it behind. I just wanted to be away from the city and to see my elder sister and my nephew Clayton.
At 10:49 a.m. we arrived at Kamatira. A place of beautiful high hills and blanket vegetation, full of shrubs, where the toad is steep and meanders down on the side of the hills.
The roar of the bus engine suddenly changes to a strained humming. The smell of asbestos fills the air due to the intermittent application of brakes. The vehicle must do not more than 20 kilometers per hour. It is easy to discern Kamatira by looking at the sides of the road. From the physicality of it, the roads in other parts are worn out but Kamatira still retained the well-tarmacked roads and strangely too, the trenches that carry the water run-offs are also still surviving the ruggedness of this part of the country. They are well intact. The tarmac from KTL to KMTR is still standard.
Though I fell sleepy I can’t afford forty winks because I dread this section of the journey. This road has ‘eaten’ many lives. Many people have lost their lives here mostly due to ignorant drivers. However, although some were caused due to lack of knowledge of this section by the drives, others were unluckily due to brake system failure. It’s a place that requires great patience even though it take approximately 10 minutes to do it going downwards (from KTL to Lodwar) but about a half an hour to an hour to do for lorries and fast cars respectively.
Sharp bends are also characteristic of this are. Many of our impatient Nairobi drivers can’t do this section successfully. The other characteristic of this section is that it starts and ends in speed bumps.
Three-quarters of the roads in West Pokot are quite fine and the scenery too is beautiful. The vegetation covered hills hug in unending succession. The time now is 11 a.m. and am still able to see that the fog had cleared and unlike chilly and foggy Kitale morning, the 35 degree Celsius or so temperature of North Rift valley, approaching Turkana District, is beginning go to take a toll.
In the bus, small children especially the sucking ones have begun to puke and mums in a desperate attempt to cool them down, wipe them with dump lessos and plead for people sitting on the bus’s windows to open them. This does little to cool the bus for it is packed beyond capacity as some people are standing while others are seated at the floor of the bus. (even so, it’s still comfortable for me).
The road starts to tear apart as we approach Ortum and I already know that as from Marich pass, where the camp that once housed Ministry of Roads and Public Works (MOPW): Road Maintenance Unit staff, the tarmac, the one Lake Turkana Road Project once built is none-existent and that continues even into Lodwar town.
As I wonder about MOPW in this area, one of which my father oversaw at Kainuk, about 160 Kilometers from Lodwar, ironically, the music playing in the bus is Mr. Nice’s ‘kikulacho’. I begin to draw parallels.
We pay taxes as any other Kenyan yet we have no tarmacked highways. We as friends of the government have been shortchanged. The song really proclaims!
At Ortum Centre, we stop so that some passengers can purchase onions – the predominant item I can see hawked here. There’s a mining activity at Ortum for precious milk-white-stones and as far as I know, there are no industries here and the activity doesn’t benefit the locals.
Truckloads of pebbles are always transported towards Kitale; I don’t know to which destination.
As soon as we leave Ortum, there’s a stream of clear water running under a culvert bridge. It’s made more beautiful by the hazy shades of leafy trees standing by its sides. There are a number of such streams as you advance further.
The heat in the bus has increased forcing many more people to remove their shirts. The opening of windows does little to cool the inside of the bus.
Until this point, there are parches of tarmac on the road that was once not only smooth but well maintained. It’s hard to imagine that it used to take a passenger van (what we call Nissan Matatu) only 3 hours to move passengers from Lodwar to Kitale, but now because of the bad state of the road, it takes at least 6-8 hours for that.
As a small settlement known as Serbit, the original bridge has been washed away completely by the recent floods (year end 2006). The only crossing point is through a makeshift bridge built by the military men from the camps in these part.
There’s still much vegetation by the wayside.
Acacia trees beautifully adorn the sides of the road. In slow succession, desert trees and shrubs have begun to replace the highland ones. However, mark you! The steep slopes and sharp bends haven’t ended. The only difference between this and Kamatira, no half an hour behind is the latter is more hazardous.
Bandits and prayers
I say a short silent prayer to God for bringing us thus far. It ain’t for nothing, this place is full of banditry and please don’t forget the danger posed by the sharp and sloppy bends of West Pokot district.
We had left the dangerous steep slopes of Kamatira to enter into a bandit prone areas.
Ever heard about Ng’oroko?
Yes, those untamed Pokot warriors and Turkana warriors who attack and waylay vehicles at a section between the Turkana and West Pokot borders.
A close look at the West Pokot hills reveal mud huts that camouflage amidst rocks.
We are still descending after Ortum and Serbit, the tarmac is completely gone and I can see two graders standing by the road side, purposely for levelling the road. We cross a bigger stream of clear water which is adorned by bigger and gorgeous milky-white rocks.
After crossing another bridge, the third since Kitale, we arrive at Marich Pass.
The heat is unmistaken high, in the regions of over 30 degrees Celsius, and at last, I give up my defiance and remove my shirt.
There’s a police post and a roadblock.
A few hawkers and passengers take advantage of the stop to sell and purchase sweet mangoes. Here the predominant good being sold are mangoes.
Before the police post, there’s a crossroad but the straight one is the one that leads to my destination of rest.
We depart Marich Pass and the landscape immediately becomes barren and harsh, except for a few shrubs and acacia trees, there’s nothing great about the northern frontier.
It’s now official, the road will be without tarmac until near Lodwar.
We approach Kainuk where the vegetation continues to be shorter and mostly thick-shrubby bushes.
After about an hour of bumpy ride, we cross a bridge over Turkwell River and arrive at Kainuk.
Kainuk is the place that separates West Pokot and Turkana Districts.
It is the border point.
This is the pace where my father was once stationed when he worked as a road overseer for MOPW.
The bus stops in front of Juba Hotel and culinary provision is done here – goat meat and Ugali in plenty.
The writings on the wall shows the owners of the hotels
‘Bakhali yake and makochoo’ announces that you are in Somali-run restaurant.
Most people order fried goat meat and Ugali, and so do I.
The food is plainly delicious.
Kainuk town is an installation of cement buildings on both sides of the road. Medina and Juba hotels compete for customers, but the later wins these days.
In years past, Medina used to give Juba a run for its money. It is the opposite these days. How times change.
I order another liter of water at Juba Hotel and head for the bus. We leave Kainuk and I position myself so as to have a clear view of the MOPW camp where I had spent a few years of my childhood.
We stumble upon another road block.
The Mabati houses are gone.
The place where my dream fondly casts, where I spent my childhood lies desolate. My father’s house was demolished.
A few cranes and vehicle wrecks still stand.
The camp is no more.
I plunge back into my seat, my heart shed silent tears for my lost childhood landmarks. I feel sad and abandoned.
To get to Lodwar from Kainuk, one must cross more than forty lagas or drifts or seasonal rivers that cut across the Kitale – Lodwar highway. From Kitale, he rivers to be crossed are about 48, however most of them are notoriously seasonal others are extinct.
A drift/laga is a depression made by a seasonal river that cuts across the road.
The engineers who constructed this road were overwhelmed by the number of rivers and due to the expensiveness of constructing bridges, they chose to build road sections made up of reinforced concrete and steel; that made them hard to be washed away by waters from the seasonal rivers. Until this point, even though the tarmac it totally worn and torn, most of the drifts still stand strong.
As stated earlier, most of the rivers are extinct except the one at Kalemng’orok which is notorious for impeding smooth travel between Kitale and Lodwar during rainy seasons.
Anyways, after about an hour and 45 minutes we arrive at Lokichar Town, the place is about 80 kilometers from Lodwar, a dry sun pan with few cement installations compared to Kainuk. No one could believe that this place would be transformed eight years later due to the discovery of oil.
It’s at this place that a military training camp is situated, though I have never visited it nor know where exactly.
The heat is soaring and the dry land spells hardship and harsh lifestyle.
The state of the road is pathetic but we push on.
The field are expansive, scarcely inhabited and dotted with shrubs.
We encounter more and more drifts till the forty second one. A scrap metal of a Bedford truck cabin used to lie by the roadside here. But this day, I didn’t see it. It seems like it has been lifted. It was a sign that that is the last laga before reaching Lodwar.
The tarmac begins to reappear.
Blue and black hills hugging begin to appear in the distance.
The land is barren of trees; sand dunes fill the horizon. The shrubs are so scarce but heard of camel, goats and sheep can be seen competing for the little vegetation on the expansive fields.
The temperature inside the bus is bearable due to the impending dusk.
The plains, where my dream fondly casts expands more as we approach Lodwar precincts.
The plains are welcoming to me, as they transport my memories into my childhood. The expansiveness captures distance that my young innocent feet couldn’t conquer. I feel jealous for the plains and dream of their invincibility.
On this section of the road, at least the bus can do 80 Kilometers per hour
Down palm house begin to appear followed by house made of concrete.
The black rock Lodwar hills officially stands majestically at the center of the approaching horizon. Lodwar Boys High School can be seen at this point.
It is 5 p.m. in the evening and the heat has been replaced by some soothing wind. The road is smooth but not beautiful.
On the extreme right hand side of the horizon, the place I grew up in, the Lodwar Ministry of Public Works: Roads Maintenance Unit camps in the distance looks like ruins. However, they are not deserted, a few staff still reside there
Welcome, you are in Lodwar!
Our current modern disposition rests as in all humanity,
The message of brotherliness within died minutes ago.
Choked and strangled by the serpent which at our dawn
began to coil around our tree of being.
We made noise, but it wasn’t strong enough…
Now, we raise our voices again,
After decades of accepting subjugation,
After swimming in tandem with the serpent’s idea.
Our protests recede back into time’
And reveal in black and white, our Pharisaic essence.
It uncovers a debate between serpents
Each accusing the other of deceit.
They are sounds of encouragement,
Voices of cheering on each other,
To this road of freedom we have taken on lately-free from conscience.
We are alike, we are brothers…
Mothers and fathers-our parents
March possessed towards the alluring sea
The sea which promises and boasts of all that could be invented.
That every disabled
(More so, mentally)
Are fit for stagnation.
Yes, not one.
Even our learned- empathise with my situation to be counselled.
Am surely phobic
Yet they force me to show them my all-I refused
But they tore me down anaesthetically,
And rob me of my ego. My manhood!
I have no love; (pause)
We have no love, (pause)
I feel no love. (Pause)
Nobody loves me. (Pause)
No, (slight pause) not one.
17 November 2006
I cry for myself,
and for my deceased mother too.
The distant hills proved invincible
Since I took over on the TRI-day.
The hopes I had nurtured
successfully under the cautious abode of my soul
at the place of opportunities I trusted.
In the future that beacons nigh,
my voyage takes me to the place of the parched plains.
The place of the plains where my dreams fondly casts
To abode near the hugging hills and less privileged rivers.
Where on a stone – and in the distance all around
My heart is pleased with the loneliness
of the dotted and invincible plains
I shall return to find rest and re-launch
3rd January 2007
The love for study and knowledge,
I have carried it throughout since I was very young,
When thoughts come,
When new ideas hit my head,
It is usually very cool,
I want nothing more,
Only to be cuddled by words, writings and knowledge,
It is like having an orgasm with the angels.
15th August 2015